I'm just fed up! In the old days, when you gave someone an inch they took a mile... but I think we need to make a correction for this day and age. Show someone some kindness and compassion and they will rob you blind! No wonder everyone walks around in a zombified state unwilling to smile or show any kindness to others.
Oh yes! The dark rain clouds are circling today! So its a good day to just let the rain fall where it may.
For the first time in a long time, dark rain clouds don't freak me out. They use to terrify me but that was because if you are trapped in darkness for extended periods of time it can start to feel like your only reality and the terror of never feeling happiness again is very real and super terrifying!
Everyone has their dark days or moments when we just need to have a good cry. I think we need to try and understand that some people struggle much more with fighting that darkness and usually its because they have been fighting it for so long, they just feel exhausted. I felt very exhausted. At one point the hardest thing was simply getting out of bed in the morning. If I managed that, then it was a good day.
It took me a long time to even realise how thick the negativity surrounding me was growing and I honestly felt dead inside, completely numb to everyone and everything. Any passion I once had... well I was just 'faking it' now... My reality was me stumbling around in the darkness tripping and falling. Then one morning I woke up and I wanted to just stop living...
That's the day I decided that I hadn't ever really been living... I'd just been surviving! Barely! I was dying inside because I wasn't living. Something magical happened next, one person told me to get on with my art. It wasn't the words, it was the place that they were coming from. This person had absolutely no doubt that I could do this and with the ease used to point this out to me, it felt like the most natural direction in the world to go.
So to those out there who don't believe one person can make a difference. I'd like to point out that one person made ALL the difference to me. Changed my life and I'm starting to get my happy back :)
The beauty of going through such a wonderful life changing transformation is wanting to share. I want to shout out QUIT your job! Find your happy and do what makes you happy! A happy you makes the world around you better.
I could go into more details as to why I felt this way but I don't think that's really that important. We need to look up to the light in order to leave the clouds behind. Big change can start with the most simple of actions. My personal favourite is to do THE TO DO list! That's where I started! HAHA... More importantly, from the wise lines of Yoda... Don't talk, DO!
When you fill your day with DO's
it will take away the blues
so no more can't
and a lot more can
AND that's when we can begin the......
happiness dance!
(followed by silly dancing)
:)
By Arana Kennedy
Artist and playgroup teacher ;)
